New Years Eve .

Now this is the time i`ll recap my favorite memories of two-thousand eight

[Best Birthday]O2.11.2OO8
-No School on my birthday .
-Non-Stop phone calls, aims, txt msgs birthday shout-outs .

[Best First]
-seeing a new friend[warren] the day before my birthday .
-first valentine .
-shot of vodak skyy .
- patron
-kickback.
-bonfire .
-roscoe`s chicken and waffles .

[Best Wedding]:O4.12.O8 Raven & Ian Dunn.
-junior bridesmaid .

[Best Summer 2OO8]: i`ve ever had here at home in California .
-working[summer job] .
-[$$$]
-missions .
-no curfews .
-fun . fun . Fun .

[Best Conversations]:
On Aim™ & Phone
with:
Dopieeee . Jelliee . Sister Jenn . Auntiee Kristy. Grace . Warren . Jae . Bestiee Bestest Friend Victoria . Hash Brown . Meelee . My Browniee Sisters: LaNeisha & Jasmine . Honeycomb . Breaux . Brandon . Keisha . Cousin Matthew . All My Co-Workers . Cousin Raven & Ian . Jazzy Johnson . Crosby .

[Best Movies Nights]:
Max Payne With Cousin Matthew
Soul Men with Britney .
Yes Man with Mike & Breaux

[Best Time Spent]: hash brown`s house .
-cruising the streets with best friend victoria
-spending the night at raven and ian`s house
-walking home; threw the park[to my old house] ; running in darren, evelia , & gregory[elementary friends]
-anytime with cousin matthew .
-baby cain baby shower .
-party hoppinggg with jelllieee .

[Best Family Event]: O8.23.O8 Disneyland .

[Best Days]: O7.O5.2OO8 & 11.04.O8 & 11.19.2OO8

U n f o r g e t a b l e
I will NEVER forget these two days .

[Best Parties]:
*Sweet Sixteens:
-Tyja .
-Jaraye .
-Arianna .
-Amahri .
Cousin Garvin`s 25th Birthday .
Aunt Diana`s 50th Birthday party .

[Best Mission]:-Ditching .
-Bridge with BB .
-Bust my ass with Pablo, Grace , Miguel .

[Best Mission at a Function]: O1.21.O8 . Dejon`s Function .
People in Attends: Me, Hash, Breaux, Brisco, Mike, Johnathan , Unseif
Our Mission:Westchester Park . Bowling Alley . running after the Santa Monica Big Blue Bus .
Taco Bell/KFC . 5 . O .

2OO8. It`s been fun . It`s been real . Adios .

Quick Run Threw .

yesterday .
del amo .
ferryn frost .
old navy .
macy .
gap .
ralphs .
ride aid .
aunt lethia`s house
aunt diana`s house
very long day .

Night Before .
bones with the bros .
yay my brother john is here from san diego .
one-fifty .
BP jeans & teeeee .
socks .
long sleeves .

- -I think I found something new

Merry Christmas .

Finally ! This day is here .
I`m really not into the holiday spirit .
Christmas is really for the little kids .
As usual it never seems to fail I didnt get anything I want and or need for christmas .
At least I still alive and I was able to woke up to see this day, and for that i`m thankful .
Tonite .
Location: View Park .
On Mullen
Home of Aunt Pat & Uncle Herbie .
For Christmas[Family Gathering]
I never look forward to going to their house on christmas day .
The Food: [let just stay I rather be at Mrs. Laura`s House grubbinnn` right now]
Gifts: Like Santa Claus & his helpers .
I`d like to go to the movies tonight .
But I dobut that will be happening .
Happy Holidays .

Overload .

Friday.12.19.2OO8
start: 9:00am
aunt diana`s house .
los cerritos mall .
back to aunt diana`s house .
sam`s club .
costo .
marshall`s .
michael`s .
ross .
home---->5:30pm .
prep time .
del amo with mike and chris .
Movie: YES Man .
Home---->12;56
Sat.12.2O.2OO8






- -Turn Heads .

Rippinnnnn` & Runnnninnn`

Busy . Busy . Day .
Tia Diana called me & said wake up, get ready we`re about to hit the streets .
list of location all in order .
Start: 11elevenam
[check]costo .
[check]bed bath and beyond .
[check]marshalls .
[check]balwin hills mall .
[check]aunt diana`s house .
-cousin garvin made the best lobster ever
[check]south bay pavillion .
[check]PCH--->Kohl`s .
Home .
End:7seven:45pm

the block .
a red circle with a slanged line across sideways .
permanent . never fades away . last forever .
amazing . beautiful . tremendous . =] .
the effects . the action . the characters .
how iL0VE .
seventeen . EIGHTEEN . NINETEEN .









- -` Fin .

Unappreciated .

Wow!, it amazes me how a person could be so blinded sighted and not see their faults or actions towards a person . Finally i`ve put the missing piece to the puzzle and now i`m beating myself because how could I have been so damn stupid not to realize this until now. Hi, everyone i`m the BACK BURNER . This all began two years ago, there were five girls and they all were new to this school . These girls were all so very close, however we all went our seperate ways the next year . Now its the beginning of the new school year and some new faces come along and merged with the originals . Immediately the lonely girl becomes a outsider, however she oly does this to avoids the obvious before it actually happens in plain and clear view . As usual she was absolutely correct about her prediction . So the two girls from the original group battled some challenges . One of the girls in particular seperate from the clan based on issues . Now what`s her next step? The lonely girl better known as the BACK BURNER . She`s the back up plan . The last alternative . How I view this that the lonely girl was NEVER needed, she just something to hold on too for now until somwthing else great comes along . But wait that has ready happened, tooo late oh well .
A friendship is the state of being a friend .
A friendship isn`t all glitter and gold its not meant to be perfect . Right now, I`m at intersection waiting for the light to turn green but it constantly blinks red which stops me now from confiding and consuling . Preparing for the worst that yet to come .
To Be Continued . . .

Turnt Up .

1:02am && I just made it home from . . .
Amahri`s Sweet Sixteen .
tonight was piss Zina the fuck off and fuck Zina over and do dirt night .
_I was so livid i wanted to be a serial killer at tht time and moment .
_I didnt even want to go to the party and tht just killed my hold .
_If it was for esp. amahri, mike and chris i wouldnt have gon one bit .
_I let it go but trust i`ll never FORGET .
_I was so fxckinnnnn turnt[I wasnt even drunk .]
_our new dance is stomp that BITCH .
_somebody was making out*cough*[seniors] .
[I guess their back together now]
_three for three .
_getting dropped of home was hilarious:
- racing each other .
- sudden stops in the middle of the road .
-high beam .
- hazard lights .
- pigs .
P.S . Est.12.14.O8 . NG . && thts a muthafucking promise .

Testing The Function

This Morning .
ACT at Westchester .
Room C-4 .
-I looked up to my left i saw granny panties and
-I looked up to my right i saw stripped drawls .
- Air max nikes with zebra and cheetah print .
- -Crazy weather .
Gloomy . Rainy . Sunny . Windy .
Saw my wifey and miguel .
In and Out .
Bank of America .
Office Depot .
Inglewood Swapmeet .
Now i`m home started my project for cain but i`m not done yet .
BB is currently here right now be bout to get it jerking tonite at amahri sweet sixteen .

Po'aono

This morning I took my SAT's at USC.
Too bad I know the routine from last year.
Omg, it seemed like it was never going to end.
1:30pm. Finally its over .
I waited for my mommie to come get me afterward and one thing that stood was this couple.
I was just so turnoff. The should have just came out there dorm with no clothes on if that's the case. However off that point of view, on the other hand I envisioned me and [?] . lol

I would have never made it on time to Battle of The Bands being that I didnt have a ride there and back and plus the SAT's was over a hour later than what I expected .
Finally, I got one of my cravings. Wing Stop . However, I pissed they fxcked up my order especially when I called in my order too. Atleast, I got half of what I wanted lemon pepper.

USC wins the Rose Bowl .
Inglewood wins Battle of The Bands .
I couldn't be any more happier .
This week has been truely amazing .

- -Kina .

Wild Out Wednesday .

Today I completed a good deed .
I made a sympathy poster for Amahri .
She deserves this . She is the sweetest, most outgoing. lovable, all around type of girl . She has such a bubbly personality .
Cheryl[driving]: Peeeeeeeeeeeeeeace !.
Cheryl: that was rude . hahahahaha . where you`ll going .
Me & BB: by McDonalds .
Cheryl: Come on get in .
Lol 45 seconds of laughter .
She drop us off . I randomly saw my best friend with his posse . Now i`m on my way home . Wtf its like noon and its like crowd in superior . Damn County Food Stamps .
Made it home . Add my finishing touching and now i`m done with my homework and laying in bed watching television .
- - The Chill .

Bubbleeeeeeeey .

Tonite . . .
On 4th && Fairfax .
Home of Raven && Ian Dunn .
Surprise birthday party for my cousin Steven .
UC Application-----> Mission Complete .
Christian Brother`s Egg Nog .
Cuba Food . B0MBAY .

Happy Thanksgiving .

8am && i`m already hard at work .
cleaning , cooking and back and forth erand to the store for last night things we need .
all day . no food . hunger . straving like marvin .
Now i have this friend[one of my guest this year for thanksgiving], we`ve seen each other grow up, he`s pretty bomb but educationally he`s a lost cause . He has two of the best parents that I wish I had to do and give me everything I want and need . I honestly he`s mother said, i`m the daughter she never had and wouldn`t even mind adopting me . He`s too caught up in the fast lane and doesnt have much time lefted . The way I usually dobut myself doesnt even compare to the way he does .
I`m praying that there is still a little bit of hope for him and he actually turns around a see the "light" .
Finally we start dinner and I push my cousin ryan out of the way to get my plate first the family started laughing and understand why I did that because i had to stay in this house alllll dayyyyy smelling the food .
Hands down , Thanksgivng at my house was a cool beans . We had a pretty good turn out . Next house, Aunt Urla . Omg tell me why when I walked in the house they we doing karoke . Lord have mercy . I should have stayed home it was wickeey wack over there tht I just fall asleep the whole time . The same shit I was doing there I would have been doing at home .

I am thankful for . . .
- good health and strength .
-two of the most beautiful parents ever although the get on my last nerves all the time lol .
- my brother and niece .
-family .
-shelter .
-clothing .
-feast .
-wisdom and knowledge .
-supportive lifetime friend .
I just have so much to be thankful for .

- - I AM Thankful .

Wasted .

Forgive me, for i know I am late being tht my computer is acting like its on its period, ol` bitch .

Thanksgiving Break ; its about damn time .

Today was a rather wasted day for me to go to school, I knew I should have stayed my ass home like I have intended on during from the get go . Anyways 11:o4am && i`m home . I found out some rather interest information today during second period . woah . i can`t believe like t-pain and lil`wayne . lol . But anyways, has off right now, no plans for thanksgiving break is a sign of me being in these house til the time i have to go back to school which is on monday, just freakinnn great .

- - *[sigh]*

Statuesque .

I AM THE . . .

Ever since that day, I feel things are completely different between us .

I don't know . I'll see only time will tell but for right now I'm giving myself a test .

Lets see how this all plays out .

I had the weirdest dream last night .

True me, you don't want to now .

Honestly, can June 18th, 2009 be here already .

The months are going by so slow but the weeks go by so fast .

I'm honestly ready for 2009.

This will be my year, not if I don't .

Lately, I'm been in a deep perspective mind frame especially since the year is coming to a end .

The time is near and ready to come .

I have a few trick up my sleeve.

&& with that being said just. . . .

expect the unexpected .

- - Unleashed .

Roll Me Up && Smoke Me. Part II .

First things first don't even sign me up or volunteer for me to do something without addressing me about it especially when you don`t what my schedule is like . Just like everyone else I have my own agenda as well, so i`ll just have to pencil you in schedule.

Now what is this weekend? Call Verna & Lance Brown asking for money .
Saturday my Auntie Jenny calls my father 5:30 in the morning which 8:30 in New Jersey for her . Does she not realize people out her in California are still sleeping around that appointed time . She explaining how she`s stressed and doesn't have any food and blah, blah , blah . He
sends her the money . Now today its Sunday my Auntie Dolly calls my mother asking to borrow a hundred . My mother is going to send her the money . Now my point is where in the fuck were they and everybody else when we need money when my father was laid off work for a entire year and when we all were in a car accident in January 2006? No where to be found . M.I.A . What kind of shit is this? I know don't get my wrong, I'm not trying to be selfish or anything, but now that we have a house I think people think we have money out the ass . Shit just because we have a house with two bedrooms, one bathroom, living room, dining room, with a big ass backyard doesn't mean we have 40 aches and a mule . We live from paycheck to paycheck every other week .

With this all being said my necessities are never met . I`m last and I`ll always be last because I`m always being put before everyone and anyone for that matter .

I don't like to depend on anyone for that matter. If I don't have want I what I'll do without. I've been doing that for eighteen years now .

I'm not expecting nor am I want to anyone to feel or play that pity party bullshit with me . I hate when someone tell me oh don`t worry i`ll do this for you or I have this for you or I got something for you I'm going to bring it for you on such and such day . Don`t make promises, because you know damn well somewhere down the line the person will be you know damn well you can`t keep . No save . I don't want your shit , its not going to make me more or less of a person anyways . Now I know some of your are saying that I'm stubborn and maybe even ignorant but I don't want anyone doing anything for me expecting me to doing it in return. If you going to do something atleast do it from your heart or out of kindness . I'm in the progress on a hunt for a job . I can't take this anymore, its time for a new approach .

Now, lets get one thing straight here at this thing they call "high school". Just because you observe what these one person doesn't mean I'm going to follow in there footsteps. I have my mine made up and I won't turn back. I am my own individual and I make my own chooses. I know change should be for the better, but not in the case . I speak when I'm spoken to and quite frankly I don't even have to do that for the most part . I wasnt born yesterday to be dumb and naive, I see right threw all that babyback bullshit . Just think have you ever thought to yourself is this change anything for my better being or is this going to help benefit me in the end? Hmm . once a bitch, always a bitch they say .

I deeeeeeeep & M.I.A . BEST .

Lonely .

On mute .
All day today .
From the time I woke up this morning until me getting ready to sleep in a matter of hours no one has said a word to me .
I have not spoken one word to anyone and vice versa .
For all I know I could be dead right now and no one wouldn't even know or even notice .
I guess this is my day of me just needing some [ME] time .
In deep perspective .
I'm taking in to deep consideration of eliminating anyway possible communicating with me .
-aim™ .
-yim™ .
-myspace™ .
-texting .
-phone calls .
-in person.
I shall experiment this all out before I made my finally decision, && this is only day one of my experiment.
-All Alone In This World.

Disappear .

Listen .

Disappear .

Word for word, this is exactly how i'm feeling right now this point and time in my life.

This is the day i'm turning my back beyond all things.

Farewell .

&& then I disappear .

_When I think about it, I know that I was never held or even cared .

On Repeat . Instant Replay .

All day.
In lala land .
In my own world .
In deep thoughts .
Dreams.
Fairytale .
Imagination .
Fantasy .
Love.
Sex.
Lust .
Cuts .
Scars .
Non-Stop .
He's like a lighter to my cigarette .
I can't stop smiling:-D.

&& even right now,

up to this every point and time .

Is this just phrase?

Idknow ?

But I know one thing damn thing . . .

for sure I shall remain [happy].

Is this for better? Well. . . . .

I've come to realization I can't tolerant the smallest nor the pity shit get to me because fact of the matter in the end it really isn't worth it.

With time, slowly but surely in observing the progress in myself and this is only for the better.

- -♥Love & War .

Wait No More .

flashback .
est. two ten`oheight.
this is the day before my birthday .
no words . just eye contact .
eleven nineteen`oheight . up close & personal .
speechless. you give me fever never would have thought this would actually come true. but i felt so safe and even at ease and peace with myself that i just forgot about everything negative that has been going for the past few days now. today, i`ve obtained a new comfort zone . but is this chemistry or just feelings? only time will tell. it`s not even the series of events but its the simple fact, im thankful and these is one time in my life i can honestly say i`m happy . i`m very grateful . & i can`t thank you enough .
- - ♥ ♥ you had me at hello.

100th Blog .

Today .

My 100Th Blog .

Finally . We made it .

I started blogging my freshman year of high school .

Now, I'm in my senior year and this is one of my addictions .

I love it.

I crave it.

I'm committed .

We`re married.

`Til death do are parts .

New Album Release.

Beyonce.

I AM Sasha Fierce .
I absolutely adore this album .

-Satellites.

-Halo.

-Video Phone.

-Diva.

-If I Were A Boy

-Single Ladies.

-Scared of Lonely.

-Hello.

-Radio.

-Disappear.

-Ego.

-Ave Maria.

Now today was a rather emotion day for me from the things that happened here at home last night . But, in reality I have to do what best for me in the end . Anyways after school I went to the bridge waiting to do my interview .

With who you may ask ?

COLUMBIA UNIVERSITY .

I was nervous & even a little bit shy but overall at the same time I was excited .

I feel great about my interview with Columbia University.

All that's lefted for me to do now is to leave it all in the hands of my lord and savior .

Happy Birthday Daddy.

Although he gets on my last nerves from time to time .

He very overprotective of me but I know its all out of love .

I love this man to death .

I wouldn't trade nor replace him for another man to be my father .

He's been here for me every step of the way step by step .

He's a great man . A great father . A wonderful husband .

iLOVEYOUDADDY.

♥LOVE,

Zina.

Say What?

715 . Sexiest bus driver i've ever seen . lol .Today just another .
iHATESCHOOL .
I'd go into farther details as to why I, but right now i'm being rather lazy and don't feel like breaking it all down .
Before I lefted school mini mama pulled me over to the side to asked me a question .
Shit I was very disturbed by the question that was ask and with no hestitation
I respond . HELL NO!.

All I need to know now is why she would ask me such a thing . I wouldnt be surprise if my name was in another scraps mouth I mean the shit never gets old .You have to give respect, to get respect .
Anyways . I cleaned, changed and rearrange my entire room ,
I think now this is one of my stress reliever .
&& I just realized for the first time ever on Sunday,
my sister Ari, was the first person to ever spend the night over my house . point .
&& in my new house at that . lol .
I know such a nerd for that .

- - All Star .

The Freaks Come Out At Night .

Arianna's Grand Entrance .

[Bright &&`d Colorful .]
[ The power of the skinnieees . ]

[Hash . Tater . Dash . ]
[ We were all caught off guard. lol]

[Bricking Back . ]
[Hash Brown & Tater Tots Collaboration.]

536 E. Queen Street .

Inglewood, California .

Arianna`s Sweet Sixteen .

Candyland.

DJ Whizz Kidd .

So I decided to go to Arianna`s Sweet Sixteen .

&& now I can honestly say, I`m so glad I went .

The grand entrance well the photos will speak for themselves .

I give the grand entrance . . . a ten !.

Just about everyone was turnt . && I mean FADED AF.

Alot of doodaddies & not enough daddies .

Doodaddies making up there own dances like the bird or the airplane . lol.

One of them had big ass bumble bee sunglasses .

Clearly there is no sun outside this time of night ,

The music stops while a doodaddy is dance.

Doodaddy: Mann . FUCK .

Breakfast Club: Dying laughing .

Darrin J. Wallace was highlight of the night .

Omg he`s was so TURNT . He was on cloud nine. Lmfao .

You had to be at the party to actually see what I mean by that .

He had me crying laughing and my stomach was hurting me from laughing so hard .

From him sucking on two lollipops at one time to bouncing around back and forth around the whole party.

Darrin: Omg this cupcakes are so muthafucking BOMB . Try it .

Darrin: Woah . Omg you look so bomb . Girl you better work .

Gas . Break . Dip . Dip .

I'm FCUKED UP . In his case . lol

Niggas ! Can you say thirsty ! I mean they didnt get invited and your name wasn`t one the list so they only alternative was to hoping over the wall and sneaking into the party .

Hi-5. I absolutely love there swagg because they are so different & unique in there own way .

Lucky is a amazing dancer .

It took awhile but I must say in the terms of what you people would say the party did JERK.

- -bomb.com

Kiss . Kiss . Bang . Bang .

I hear voices . BOOM! BOOM! BOOM! that's my brother banging on my door. She runs into my room trying to get underneath the covers with me .The first person face I woke up to this morning was my niece .

Location: Home .

Outside in the background .

Photoshoot .

Auntie Zina & Simone .

*Note: she the child i`ll never have .

Woke up and the first thing I usually do when I wake up is always look at my phone .
This morning I realized I had one missed called from my brother Freddy Gletten.
So I decided to aim him .

Me: Did you call me this morning?
Br0`: Yeaa I did.

Me: Why what happened?

BR0`: I was fucked up oh I saw this girl that looked just like u and I ran up to her and gave her a hug and it wasant u lol

Me: lol .

Me: iL0VEY0UBR0THER .

---------------------- 12:07 pm ---------------------

BR0`: Lol I love u 2 .

The Battlefield .

Today was just a rather idgaf type of day for me just at school tho.
Everyday of school is just so erkful for me.
Finally Im glad the week is over .
Although I could get use to this [missing school damn near everyday or even half a day].

I had a rather wonderful conversation with someone special this afternoon . The things this person said to me I would never have imagine it ever being said from this person to me . I mean the things that were said wasn't anything bad or inappropriate but respectable and I can respect this person that much more for that .

Today is the Last Football Game of The Season .
Inglewood vs Morningside.
This is always one the biggest game of each year .
I'm sorry my loves I won't be there but have fun for me=[ .
Let the game's begin and may the best team win .
Good Luck Inglewood & Morningside.

Back home at Eight:twentypm && i'm back home alone .

I received a message from Gabriela on behalf of Columbia University for a interview.
I'm just wanting for her to call me back . I'm excited but also nervous . I don't want to do with myself and I don't want to get my hopes all up.
All I can do is pray to the lord almighty and asking for his glorious grace upon me and help lead me to the right direction for a better tomorrow [my future.]

News Just In . I just read someone's away message and word on the street is . . .

Inglewood won the football game against Morningside .

Congratulations .
Special Recognition to my favorite inglewood football players:

Mike[my booinsider w/him] .Chris . Randall . Robert . My brother Jaraye. && Crosby .

iL0VEY0UGUYS.

Currently .

eight:thirty-six pm [the beginning .]

Dopiee & Pandy bonding .

no interruptions .

we have some caught up to do .

&& I know my dopiee is reading this right now .
&& and I must say be is beyond thee BEST .

I can dig it, can you?

- -Bomb . Bomber . Bombing . Bombest .

Speechless .

This is one time I just don`t have anything to write about.

Weird?
I know how rare is that?
Now I said for the month of November I would speak on the number of things I am thankful .
I know I haven't done that at all .

Now here is my chance to do so being that I can`t think of anything else to speak on .

I am thankful for strength .

All throughout I've faced many challenges and obstacles in my life and although many times I have wanted to drop everything and just give up, I didn't and I still have the strength to move forward and keep on striving for the best .

Breaking All The Rules .

Now, I dread going to school everyday, there is really no need or point for me to go or even be at school for that matter being that I have 236 credits and we only need 230 to graduate. I feel that clearly, I'm just wasting my time. There is no need for me to go anymore, especially being that i hate looking at the same fucking people everyday at that. I hate school . So from now on i`ll be m . i . a and deeping as much as possibl and as much needed .

- - &&&&&&&`d im out .

Happy Veteran's Day .

No School . Finally a holiday . Hallelujah .

One more week and Thanksgiving . I can't wait .

I need as many breaks as possible . The more the better and the merrier .

I have step foot outside of this house since manana .

I can say, I got much rest as needed .

I don't thing I've ever laid in bed for so long from 7am-1pm . A sign of stress . I don't know .

I have alot of things on my mind and I don't even know where to begin to even tell you .

I'm craving something new in my life .

My only question is what will it be?

Coming soon.

My Alter Ego .

Any Suggestion ?

- -Sign . Sealed. Delivered .

New Release .

November 11, 2008

New Album .

T-Pain .

THR33 RINGZ

My Favorite Tracks Off The Album.

- Ringleader Man
- Can`t Believe It

- Blowing Up

- Chopped & Screwed

- Digital

- Long Lap Dance

-Therapy

Overall. the album pretty damn dope .

Hands Down my favorite album is his album: Epiphany .

Deeeeeeeeeeeeeeeping .

leave: 6:55am .
arrive: 7:30 am .
I really havent been feeling good all day .
I have to say I had one of the best nap`s ever .
Just a real chill day for me .
I over work myself just a little bit tooo much .
I deserve a break every once in a while .
Although I don`t know when to stop .
Right now, i`m going dealing with this major critics financial, every week it just keep on getting worst and worst . Im in desperately need a job . My biggest question I have to ask myself all the time is will I being going to college? This is my biggest stress right now and its sitting really heavy on my heart . [sigh] . At this point, in my life, I don`t know what to do at all .


` -Incognito .

A Sunday Night Mission .

mission with britney .
on sixty-fifth street walking to the liquor store to get chance and get some snacks .
walking and making our way to gage and western waiting for the metro ditch waiting on one.eleven and catch the two.oh.six instead .

now on western and slauson waiting on the three.fifty-eight .
we`re sitting at the bus stop .next thing you know a man and woman come along .
the guy pulls out the cigarette and says I get up and move from sitting me next to this woman .
woman: "let me hit that"

man looks at both me and britney & I
man:"wanna smoke" ?.

us: "no" .
man: i`d think you be comfortable if you sat back here .

me: i dont want to smell the smoke .
man: i`m sorry i would have just moved away for you .man: why are you guys so quiet ? Obama is president . talk .
Britney & I : smile and laugh politely .

man: [rolls up his blunt] "wanna smoke".

Britney & I: no .

damn near felt like a hour want finally a bus come but its not the 358 we hop on the 108 .

On our way to The Bridge .

we get off at green village and run down that big hill at a steady pace.

we`re walking to the end of the block and all of a sudden a black GMC Yukon pulls up on the side of us . oh shit .

I keep on walking and ignore them as of i dont see them nor hear them .

Britney: Zina so down .

Me: Come here girl, hurry up! Quick.

We`re waiting for the light to chance when clearly they have more then enough time to do ahead and turn before the light changes green for us to walk across the street.

can you say thristyyyyyyyyyyy .

Me: Wht were they saying cuhh i wanst paying attention?

Britney: hey ladies . blah . blah . yada . yada . yada .

Finally we made it to the bridge .

I felt like we were never going to get there .

We brought our tickets .

Now, its time for some grub .
now we go to johnny rockets .

note tonight was my first time eating there .
we sit down behind this black guy and this pretty mixed lady .

omg he wouldnt stfu .

from the looks of thing he took her out on a date to johnny rockets of all places, didn`t play the bill but she did and just want to get in them drawls.

Now behind me these was eating his food like it was running away from him . lol.

Johnny rockets know exactly what there doing not making fries and burger a meal but pay different prices for each item seperately . just a copywrite of in-and-out to me I give it a grade C .
Borders .
African- American Literature . =].
Britney: I never had it .
Me: Wtf . Oh no . Well your tryna it .
My new favorite coffee there is

white mocha latte .

Bombay .
<--------------Movie time . Soul Man . Grade A .

I would definitely see this the movie again .
All jokes and laughs a must see movie .
Rest.In.Peace Bernie Mac & Issac Hayes .

- -skip on these nutts muthafucka .

The Feelings .

Good Morning .

I honestly have to say yesterday was magnificent . & note I didn't even go not a damn where but just stay in the house all day .
From eight am Saturday morning to one am Sunday morning .
Non-stop conservation with rarely any silent moments, just perfect . I wish it could be like this everyday. For once, I can honestly say I went to sleep happy and that's very rare, thanks to someone special=] .

During that time while having our conservation I've come to reality I really have a effect on people with the things I say and do . I don't even do it purposely but it's just become a horrible habit for so long now. But it's something I have been working on in the process, all I can do is take it one day at a time and put my best foot forward and move on with my life .

Right now I'm getting ready to go to church this morning. Change of plans . 2:24pm , currently I'm home about to make my way over to my sister Britney's House . Then, shoot on over to the movies .

- -More Inside Scoop Coming Soon .

One Way Street .

It`s kinda complicated like nivea and hard to explain, but i`ll try to elaborate the best way possible .

Now I`m on this one way street and I don`t where to go nor what to say or do when simply, it`s clearly a one way street and there shouldn`t be anything difficult about that . But I`m lost being that thid one way street is called "the four letter word" . I`m tramped on this one way street the "four letter word" which is something I complete have no experience of . I know there`s absolutely a big difference of this "four letter word" that comes in two forms . But will this "four letter word" ever find me being that I have no clue as to what to

look for on this one way street?

I am too blind to see that you want to Be With Me like J.Holiday, but I`m not scared of Lions, Tigers and Bears, but i`m afraid of loving you like Jazmine Sullivan? Or . . ,
Is this one way street called "love" trying to help me Find My Way like A Tribe Called Quest?

- -To Be Continued . . . .

Head Start .

So. Pretty Much!
Today would have a wasted day .
But on the bright side, not in my case scenario .
Early start on my weekend .
Finally I have complete one college application but that still isn't good enough for me .
The stress and worry now are these application fees with no money to pay not one of them .
June . You are taking to long to come . Hurry up . I'm ready to graduate .

College Fair .

Tonite.
I was asked if I was going to the college fair. Naw dawg. But for 60 hours of community services or credits needed for a class I ready need. oh yes, i'll definitely go. Thanks to my best friend BB and Mommie Margo they came and scoop me up. Next stop, Hollywood Park in Inglewood. Omg. I see way to many people, especially these things[people[k]]. eww. like a damn club function and shit.

Typical niggas there being thristy tryna pick up fee's and females wanna be extra`d out & shit .

Pure Ignorants.

Anyways, I have a new college that I have my heart set on University of San Diego.

Thank to Joseph Davidson. God Bless America. Jesus . Joseph . && Mary .

He's willing to do whatever he can anyway possible for me to go to the University San Diego.

Scholarships. The Whole Nine & The Enchilada.

&& he's overly brood bomb. biting my bottom lip. lol.

The night was all jokes and very interesting[very hot and steamy like a soap opera].

Overall, received resourceful information, it was very valuable and useful

- - Chance of A Lifetime .

When The Shit Hits The Fan .

Mood: Angry. Frustrated. Livid. Pissed the Fuck off. Stressed.

For once I actually decide to go to school and go to class and actually learn something. School starts and I go to my second period class pre-calculus with Mr.Thomas. One of announcements made this morning was "All Seniors Must Report To The MPR Room at 8:30. Now I just ignore the announcement being that one out of every full blue moon I go to the seniors meetings. Anyways its after 8:30 and now the seniors are leaving class to go to the meeting. I stay in class because I don't really understand the concept of what Mr. Thomas is teaching although I have a A in his class I need to know and fully understand the material. Now the seniors are going back and forth to Mr. Thomas classroom get chairs and tables to use in the mpr room which is taking away from me learning what I need to learn by interrupting and distracting me and the rest of the students. Now well i'm in the classroom, trying to get back on track as to learning the lesson that is being taught, I'm repeatedly being told over and over again that is it mandatory that I have to go to this personal statement workshop. Fuck this shit! Hell No! I storm out and leave. I'm no longer, no where to be found on campus. Amber Alert .

Forgive me and I know I am very ignorant for all this, but I am eighteen and I'm not going to allow anyone to make me do what I dont want to do . I am older to atleast know what I want to do and make my whole fucking decisions. I don't and shouldn't have to be obligated to do something that I don`t want to do. All of this is taking away from me learning educationally. Now when I dont have the proper grades to show to the colleges what is my excuse to be? The reason I have this or that grade is because I was pulled out of my school damn near everyday for a senior meetings. I know college is very important and it take alot of work an determination to get there but I dont have the basic fundamental then how will I advantage and excel in college?. Clearly I know myself well enough to know and for me to go to that worksheet I wouldn't have been able to complete or get not one thing done and that would just be a waste of my time. I simply can't be in a room full with such things[people].

when I need that full on one on one guidance and attention. I know I must be more open and broad-minded.

- - M . I . A .