HazyKUSH!

Last Night

Aol Instant Messenger.

I Recieved a AIM

from "someone"

something: sup ms.z

me: nothinggggggg.

two second later

this someone's away

message pop out

and his entire

demeanor changed.

I had to check myself right

to make sure I wasn't

trippen but it wasn't

my fault why he flipped

out & he said we'd talk

tomorrow(which I knew,

this wasn't going to happened)

but I agree & said I have to get

shit off my chest anyways. But you know how guys are, they can

NEVER WAIT, always anxious & so impatient, so he insisted that

I tell him right there & then which I did & just like I expected, the

outcome was going to be good which didn't surprise me.

In a way, I'm proud of myself

because this was a learning experience.

I waited for 8eight months

for "someone", that wasn't even worth waiting

for to begin with, being that he continued

to mess with my emotions & would decide to speak to

me whenever he felt he wanted too.

I ended September on the right path.

'cause ain't NO feeling like being FREE!

Cause if you only knew, what I felt for you

You would have held on tighter,

Fought a little harder,

Been a little smarter and now you're gonna miss my love

And one day soon you'll see

You'll reach out for me

Boy you had a keeper

Didn't know how to treat her

Should have felt a little deeper and now you're gonna miss my love

See boy you had a keeper

But you didn't know how to treat her

- -My Love&hearts:; Ciara.

PEACE.

Farewell September

Wandering Wonder.

Yesterday, I just so happen to be looking back

on a previous conservation that I had with this "someone"

It's funny because this conservation took place in February

& now its September and yet this hasnt happened yet,

which in honesty, I'm not mad about being that I know

but read this:

February 18th, 2009

"someone": BUT UM ZINA

----------------------- 2:25 am -----------------------

me: yes "person's name" .

"someone": YU KNOE I WANNA MAKE YOU MAH BABY RITE . , BUT ITS GONNA TAKE SUMTYME

me: why you wanna make me yout baby .

me: and yeaa i know its going to take sometime .

me: *your

"someone": BEKAUSE IT SEEM LIKE IF WE WAS TOGETHER I KULD TRUST YOU IN EVERYTHING YOU DO BEKAUSE YOU KNOE YOUR BOUNDARIES AND YOU KNOE HOW YO DUDE WULD REACT IF YU DID SUM DUM STUFF. AND YOU GOT THAT MUCH LOVE&RESPECT FOR HIM NOT 2W0 MESS UP THE RELATIONSHIP YALL GOT.

Now how long do you expect me to wait?

It's been eight months and before you know,

its going to be a year since we've know each other.

In my opinion, I feel someone is not a man of his word.

I also feel like I'm wasting my time, especially when I feel

like in reality I may just be wasting my time. On time will tell.

Now ladies, tell me what you think?

Gucci by Gucci

On the night of prom

My Cousin Raven

gave me a little bottle

of this and ever since that

day, I fell in love.

Try it, You'll Love it!

Comeback Session V.I

Last night,

I'm in my room trying to go to sleep & I'm constantly hearing

my parents are having a full blow discussion about me

& mind you its not anything position, all NEGATIVE.

This is a EVERYDAY thing & I don't think they understand nor do they

comprehended that I don't care and the more & more it continues

the less & less I care. I'm pray to god I get this job real soon because

I'm tired of being home & have to constantly listen them being pessimistic.

From some reason, my mother love to start confrontation.

She knows that I really want to go into the Business & Administration Field.

She states"good luck with that because their's no money in that field".

She wants me to go into the medical field and that something I just dont want to do.

My heart isnt in it, all she's thinking about is the money.

I dont want to choose a career that I know I'm not going to be happy with.

So with no support from my parents, I have to motivate myself, which is one of the hardest things, for me to do.

Since parents know EVERYTHING and you can NEVER tell them that their WRONG.

This is my time to shine and prove anyone and everyone that ever doubted me!

Happy 18th Birthday Jaymz N. Keller

So, I guess your wondering how I met him?

I met him back in our junior of high school.

We had six period Ms.Kuzma class (all JOKES).

& from there on he established"Bina Bunz"

"Bina got the bunz."

& now his MY "cappuccino"

He's definitely one of the coolest guys I know.

He can always tell when something is wrong with me.

I know I can talk to him about damn near ANYTHING.

Anytime spent with him is a blast.

He's so fun to be around and alway knows how to make a person laugh.

He's not your ordinary guy

You definitely wont find another like

Jaymz N. Keller!

I love♥ you!

I miss you!

Have the best birthday EVER!

Your finally LEGAL!

Live it UP! Fuck it UP!

Can't wait for you to come back home!

Happy 18th Birthday Brandon Duhon

I met him my freshman year of high school

at Animo Venice Charter High School

He's a cool cat, hella goofy & silly.

Then we went our separate way sophomore year.

Summer oh'NiNE, we reunited at Holman for summer jobs.

We played catch up with one another after that.

West La Classes for those two weeks, we had to make it fun.

Yesterday, I had to get on his headed about doing something

for his birthday because he was going to do a damn thing.

But after our little prep talk, I convinced him into to going to,

& I guess that worked. Now, his having a kickback.

Your Finally Legal!

Have the BEST birthday EVER.

Live it UP! Fuck it UP.

Love ♥ ya

Sincerely,

Zina.

Setting the Record Straight.

After seeing "someone" today, I told myself,

this is where I need to draw the line.

I'm tired of being let down & mislead by [____].

I'm not happy now and wont be, anytime soon

if I'm not happy with myself first.

I guess what I'm trying to say is

I'm getting rid of the bad weed

In order for my garden to blossom.

I'm anxious to find something new for my life.

Only thing I'm wondering is

who? what? when? where? why? & how?

will this something new in my life will appear?

Will god lead my in the right direction or show me the way?

Only time will tell.

But I know,

I'm not longer going to allow anyone to get in the way.

I'm more than ready to move forward with my life.

This isn't something, I want to do

But I NEED to DO.

So, hit back, relax and enjoy the show

This is the Room for Improvement of ME.

Let class begin.

Happy Birthday & Rest In Peace Stacy- Ann Sappleton

Today would have been my cousin's 32nd birthday.

Here's the story:

On May 7, 2004, Stacy-Ann caught an early morning flight to New York, where she'd made arrangements to stay with her future in-laws in Rosedale while she checked out where she'd be getting married. Cops say her plane arrived at LaGuardia Airport around 8:30 that morning. Stacy-Ann planned to take a cab to the Blairs' house -- but had to stop at the airport ATM to get some quick cash first. She withdrew $40, then hailed a cab from the airport.

She had been stripped down to her underwear and shot in the stomach three times.

When cops interviewed the cab driver, he said he let Stacy-Ann off right by the Blairs' home. Surveillance cameras confirmed Stacy-Ann's arrival there, but that's where the trail goes cold. Investigators never found Stacy-Ann's luggage or clothing.

If you know anything, please contact American's Most Wanted & NYPD with any information you may have or know,

Justice needs to be served.

Happy Birthday Loryn!

iKN0W we dont communicate like we use

But your a very kind, goofy, loving & caring person.

Damn you old now. lol. Have a great day.

Live it up, Fuck it up. Love Ya. PS. You still OWE ME!

Video One.

This is something, I felt I need to do.

& yes, I am actually talking about "someone"

Riverside Runaway.

So, I runaway to Riverside from the weekend with Hashiee.

We lefted Friday night & come back Sunday morning.

The first night there, it take a little time for us to adjust

being that this was our first night along with no parents

and at Hashieee & Trixx apt.

Saturday, we drove around the area a little bit,

so Hashiee can get a little familiar with the place

& drove around the UC Riverside campus.

Overall, I had a great weekend away from home.

& now i'm considering moving to Riverside.

Just thinking of the pros & cons that come along with it.

New Record.

To Riverside: 1:00:00

To Inglewood:59:59

See You Soon Riverside Home!

Turning Point.

Alright, so check this out.

I'm running away

leaving the Inglewood & LA area.

Finally about to experience,

that real COLLEGE LIFE.

I definitely getting away

from all this madness that has been occuring

for the past few months.

with the deaths of my friends, loved ones

I don't feel safe anywhere, but that doesnt mean,

that I'm doing to live my life in fear.

Now i'm packing my things

I don't know what time I'm leaving exactly.

So, hopefully, you'll hear from me when I

come back by the grace of god.

iL0VE♥ all.

Sincerely,

Zina Marie.

PS. I'm cherishing every moment

as my last day here on earth.

Holla If You Need Me.

6:10. Make Reservations.

9:20. Confirmation.

9:25. Introduction.

11:00. Conclusion.

Basically, let me just put it to you like this

I NEVER ASK FOR MUCH, matter of fact

I NEVER ASK FOR ANYTHING.

So when I'm asked for some time,

I most definitely, try to take advantage of it best way possible.

It's amazing, how we can spend so much time

with one another & we have yet to get tired of each.

& its always been like this since day one.

February 09 is where it all began.

However, I can't sit back and daydream in the past.

But now, its the present

leading toward the future, possibly.

With this being said,

I'm willing to make things work.

But we have alot of work to do.

Only question is are you ready to work with me?

I'm not in a rush or a hurry.

I just dont want to be wasting my time & yours.

I need for things to be mutal, in order for this to pan all out.

. . .To Be Continued.

Checkpoint.

So yesterday,

Mom went of town

Dad working night shift now.

I pretty much didn't have anything planned.

Graciee, hit me up, so she partically kidnapped me.

Now, we go to her job so she can get another dog

but her co-workers brother lefted already by the time

we go there. Next, stop we went back to graciee's for some grub.

Afterward, next stop, Hashieee's House!

I love how we are so open with each other. lol

So we have new edition to the breakfast club,

Graciee is now Trixx.

Plan B.

Chill at my house.

I don't know but for some reason Hashiee & I

always seem to have random heart to hear moments.

We never plan them out they just happen.

& with this being said, I have added a quote

from hashieee, on the right-hand side of my page.

Definitely something, you should think about.

Hide & Seek.

So, I've partically seen

"someone" everyday this week.

But the funny thing about that is

this "someone" still haven't seen me.

I'm all eyes and ears. Observing.

Scoping. Look over my shoulder.

Watching my every move.

Like a hawk in the night.

Your never going to find me.

At the rate I'm going right now.

Now, Hashiee says its destined to happen

but I beg to differ. Lets see how long

this is going to last.

WEEK ONE.

Mission Complete.

Catch Me If You Can. . . . .

Alright, Now Let's Cut To The Chase.

First Day,

Not Excited

On the otherhand,

I saw Ianthe.

Now, for some reason

I think I'm going to

like my English Class.

Second Day,

Thank God

Although, I was

on the waitlist,

I am now permantely

in the classes.

I have to admitted

I did like the view,

from all angles today lol.

wow, once again I bumped into Skyler.

oh shit, now I'm playing hide and seek

funny thing about that is, accidently

saw someone from a distance.

omg, I saw my aunt kristy

I hadnt seen her in like four years.

We definitely have some catching up to do.

overall today was better than yesterday

& stay tune

for the rest of

this week's dish.

chao.