- New Friend ; A.R
Rebirth ; of Stepney St ; Jan.26.2010 – Jan.27.2010
(head game was wack, [.]point blank[________]period[.])
Farewell January .
So, today breaks our year . However, she wasn’t too excited or even happy about this, begin that she knew what she going to be faced up against . He actually, kept his word, but once again back to phrase one . In the end, he was in disbelief by the out come of not getting what he wanted . But like he said, he set is own self up . It’s a little thing called SELF CONTROL . He didn’t have to make a effort to come especially since she didn’t even ask him to nor beg him too . When will he ever understand, she isn’t ready . She has to admit she felt bad, however he always put the pure pressure on her when it comes down to it . But in a sense this is how I view this situation he will never respect her and her body if he doesn’t know how to be patient . She was doing just prefect without him until the day he decide to confront her . Throughout that entire year they hadn’t see seen nor spoken to one another & maybe just maybe it need to say that way permanently because in reality she knows this is not what she wants.
So yesterday she receives a AIM from someone she really doesn't talk to anymore unless he approach her first.The reason for that is being that she doesn't want him to think, that she wants or need anything from him.However, she knows everytime that he approaches her, he always up to something, especially something that he wants from her.
This is where the story all begins: Now, they've grown up together ; lived on the same street & even went to the same elementary & middle school .Throughout those years, they both grew to like each other and down those line, he want more.But this was something she had no experience with no since of knowledge .So he was her a first for the little things(first base) & even a little bit more .However, she was faced up against his numerous acts of pure pressure .She knew that was something she wasn't ready for & still isn't 'til this day .As when grew older the feeling were still mutual .He even wanted to make a commit with but she turned him down because she knew it was for all the wrong reason.Just before we came legal age, he moved away from the street where they've grown up together. She felt sad in the begin but it was also a sign of relief in order for her to move forward whether her life. So now they've gone there separate ways. A few months later the night she's packing her things to move to her new home & he mysteriously comes back which was the last time they saw each other.
Now back to yesterday. He claims that he misses her, however she seriously doesn't believe him because she thinks its one of his usual schemes.She agree to spend time with him, but she fears it going to go back to square one all over again .She doesn't set an exact day tells him, let play it day by day to see what day would be best because she doesn't want to plan something & then flake on him .So anyways during their conservation she starts to realize this isn't the same person she knows or knew growing up.She could somewhat see that he may have changed just a little bit but its still hard to believe being that she kinda knows his game & how he plays it.He questions whether or not they are still cool & she states she doesn't see why, they we're on good terms before they when there separate way.He stays he wants to see her, so she asks him how that is going to happen & he tells her he's willing to go the extra mile .Her eyes all most pop out of her eye sockets. She was in awe . He says he changed but she has to actually see that to believe that. But just like she figured, he is on a mission for one thing & only one thing .There has been opportunities in the past before, but she just wasn't ready She doesn't feel like he's worthy of her prize possession although they known each other all their lives & have history, she doesn't envision it. She question him why ? He said its something he was always wanted to do and we known almost our entire live time so he doesn't see why not .But in her mind she tells herself that isn't good enough. She believe if he really wanted what he on a mission for he would prove himself & work harder to make him worthy. He tells her to think about it, not even giving her enough time to do so .
The only question is what is she to do? When she feels her old feeling may begin to grow for him again? What if she give him a chance but then ends up regretting it?What would you do (vice versa)
