Far From Over

Now before you read the conservation, let me give you a recap .

So back on February 11, 2009 ; my birthday is when this person & I started talking and things we're going well.

We been on a few dates but we're NEVER in a relationship .

After February, from March to August it was an on & off again, communication with one another.

But on September 30th, 2009 was the last straw for me, I had, had even enough of it.

On October 5th,2009 on a cold & rainy day, I was waiting for the bus to go home.

Instantly see a car that I recognize; the person make a left turn, throws their hand up to say whats up, break their neck & cont. to drive. I NEVER expect anything from anyone but why even bother to wave hi at me, what was the point.

Yesterday, Friday, July 7th, 2010 ; 9 MONTHS LATER HE HITS ME UP .

Here is the conservation:

[20:33]: HELL0.

[20:33]: Posted down in the tilt for 2nite only , wun nite stand

[21:19]: hmm, hi . . .

[21:20]: WUSSUP .. Y0U REMEMBER ME

[21:26]: hmm. . .refresh my memory .

[21:27]: I'M.... BUT THIS IS H0W Y0U G0WN ACT T0WARDS LIKE Y0U D0NT KN0E ME

[21:29]: no, I'm not going to act like that towards you like I don't know you .

[21:30]: IGHT , S0 WUSSUP WIT ALL THIS " REFRESH MY MEM0RY " I'M TRYNNA HAVE AH CONVO WIT CHU... CAUSE I AIN'T TALKED T0 Y0U INA MINUTE... ITS KIND 0V WEIRD 2 SAY BUT I MISS Y0U IN WHUT N0T BUT Y0U PR0LLY D0NT CARE AB0UT ALL DAT

[21:31]: H0W WAS Y0 DAY 2DAY D0E?

[21:32]: whts up with the "refresh my memory" is, hmm well lets see its been roughly 9 months to be exact since we haven't talked

[21:33]: & its really hard for me to believe that its kind of weird for you to say you miss me .

[21:35]: WHAT CHU THINK I D0NT 0R SUMTHIN

[21:36]: if you say so, then I'll take your word for it

[21:36]: but trust & believe, I DID care in the past, mark my word but I guess you didn't really notice that it .

[21:38]: YEAH I N0TICED . IT........ 0H 0K. CAUSE I WAS FINSTA SAY LIKE DAMN BUT....

[21:38]: H0W WAS Y0UR DAY 2DAY D0E

[21:38]: it was alright .

[21:39]: THAS STR8... Y0U STILL IN SK00

[21:39]: uh huh .

[21:39]: yeaa .

[21:40]: Y0U STILL AT EL C0

[21:40]: yeaa .

[21:43]: 0H THAS K00 0BIVI0USLY. Y0U AIN'T TRYNNA C0NVERSATE. BUT I AIN'T W0NT T00 MUCH D0E I WAS JUS CHECKIN UP 0N Y0U SEEIN H0W Y0U D0ING BUT IMA HIT CHU UP S0METYMES.

[21:47]: what makes you think that?

[21:52]: Y0U N0T EVEN INTERACTING WIT ME.. Y0U JUS ANSWERING EVERY QUESTI0N I'M ASKIN Y0U ...

[21:53]: LIKE DAMN AT LEAST ... Y0U C0ULD... ASK ME THIS ASK ME THAT BUT I AIN'T TRIPPIN...

[21:53]: IMA HIT CHU D0E

[21:53]: I'M L0WKEY BIZZY

As you can see my mood when from 10 to 0

I feel if he need to speak with me, should be done in person, lets be adults about this

He says "It's kind of weird to say this but I miss you & what not"- - > does it look like I have bullshit written across my forehead

If you really missed me, & actually gave a fuck about me, you wouldn't want nine months to speak to me.

As you see he was trying to butter me up, but I wasn't haven't it.

I wonder after this, will he get the hint?

How did I feel? I was in disbelief & I didn't even know what to say or do. I wanted about 45 mins after he hit me up to respond.

Was I being stern because I need to hold my ground or am I really over him? both

Do I wanna talk to him again? No & have the same thing happen all over again

VII.II.MXX- VII.III.MMX ; Best Night of My Entire Summer

Yesterday started out a normal day.

I didn't have school so I slept in & did a little bit of homework.

Now, throughout the day I had been talking to him all day trying to cheer him esp. with what he had been dealing. But before all this fell into place I kept my distance for two weeks because I didnt want him to think I was getting too attached .

So we had nothing planned for the night & we both we're bored so we decide to go to the beach . So I have to tell a little white lie to get my folks off my back which is terrible, especially since I'm twenty & there still very over protective of me. Now, I get into the car & we greet each other with a hug but you wouldn't think this is our first time seeing other. Since we talk on a regular bases & I've seen him before but I never said hi because we really didn't know each other on that level . So he asks me what beach I wanna go to, but it doesn't matter to me just as long as we get to spend time with each. He decides for us to go to Venice Beach, which is fine with me since I haven't been there in years & its better than going to Dockweiler. On the way to the beach, there wasn't a awkward moment or silence.

We find somewhere to park, get out the car & start walking towards the beach. Now he's checking to make sure he has everything & realized he locked he's keys in the car and has the nerve to blame it on me, lol. So he had to call AAA & we had to wait for then to come open the door to get out his keys. While we were waiting, we're talking and during a moment of silence he leans in and kisses me. From there on I already knew what we we're in for the night. With thirty mins. AAA comes & gets the keys out in 10.5 seconds.

After that, we begin walking towards the beach, talking & walking side by side, holding hands. Now, we're walking in the sand, heading towards the lightpost. We walk up the lightpost & admire the scenery. As we look into each others eyes, we begin to kiss. So we finally sit down & I grab the blanket out of my bag, he laughs and says " I see someone came well prepared." I smile & he takes the blanket to wrap around me as I lay in his arms. While I'm laying in his arms sitting down, he begins to get a little more curious then before. We play a little game, so he goes first, so it takes him a little while to figure out were certain things are. Now its my turn & I immediately find the certain areas less than 2 mins, so I won . After the second time, the police patrolled the beach we decide to leave.

Now we're walking back to the car but, we're in not rush to go back home so we just posted on the block & for then on it was heaven on earth .

It's The First of The Month

July 1, 2010

Happy 36th Birthday to my big brother Ray .

Love you, bonehead

So, I officially finished the first week of escula

one week day, seven more weeks to go

I mad I couldn't any money off my book, hopefully amazon or textbook fall threw

on my way, home .

get a text from cousin megan, so were hitting the streets

Fox Hills

Marshalls

TJMaxx

Slauson Swapmeet

McDonald's

Ralphs

Home

Wing Stop

Last stop of the night, derrick's house

we posted outside & caught up with each other since

hadn't seem him since last year April

Great way to start of the first day of July

Hola July

July Goals

-Autoescuela

-Escula

- Meet new friends

- Be adventurous

- Behind The Wheel Test

- Get A Job